Banging My Head Against the Wall

Written on 08/08/04 at 01:21 AM.

Why do you keep banging
Your head against the wall,
A friend asked me.
The same reason you do too,
I replied.
So I would put on a mask?
And smile to you,
Pretending it doesn’t matter.
Can I ever face you honestly again?
I guess not, not while
My insides still churn
At the thought of you.
As I told another friend,
I can never force my heart
To feel what it does not,
Nor force it to unfeel
What it does.